~DeCOmpo$iTioN BeauTy~

umeko_chan @ 2008-06-29T22:56:00

2008-06-29T20:57:40Z

ok, here is the link for my new lj :

pinkydreams.livejournal.com

just let me know if you add me please^^!

umeko_chan @ 2008-06-29T19:12:00

2008-06-29T17:14:06Z

I'm going to change my lj.
I wanna start a new one for my new life and just threw away all thoose old bad feelings~.

I'll put the new link soon <3.

umeko_chan @ 2008-06-07T21:50:00

2008-06-07T20:05:10Z

Je m'enuie... C'est bientôt le bac et je suis même pas foutue de réviser plus que d'habitude (c'est à dire rien). Je suis nulle je sais mais j'arrive pas à bosser.. J'ai jamais réussi d'ailleur. Jun à eu son bac, alors je peu l'avoir aussi x3~!
Je me fait même pas plus de souci que ca~ Au lieu de réviser je préfère lui parler, déja qu'on ne parle pas souvent.. C'est nul de ne jamais avoir de temps pour soi.. Plus je lui parle et plus je veu quitter la France. J'en ai marre, je vais devenir folle si ca continue u___u.. Je supporte plus les gens que je cotoie tous les jours, ils s'accrochent tous aux mêmes choses que moi pour pouvoir rentrer dans ma vie. Mais est ce que je ne parle qu'aux gens qui aiment les mêmes choses que moi? Surement pas.
Encore deux jour à les supporter et apres j'ai une pause jusqu'en octobre~~J'espère qu'elles se seront calmées d'ici là u_u".. Et moi aussi..
Pourquoi je n'arrive pas à lacher le contact avec lui? Pourtant il est loin, il n'est pas du même monde que moi, il n'a pas le temps, on ne se verra peut etre pas avant que j'aille en Thailande..sinon au Japon..
Et pourquoi j'écris tout ca moi?.. Ca doit interesser personne.. M'enfin faut bien que ca sorte quelque part~

Je vais bientôt avoir mes rajouts, je me suis enfin décidée ^^! (encore une foi grâce à lui u_u").

Leave... ?

2008-04-16T17:05:44Z

I decided to keep all the money I can to go to THAILAND.

I just have 10€ now, and it's for my week end in PARIS... ahah... I'm really poor now I think ^^"

Anyway... I really WANNA go there u_u... I'm just sick to stay here with dah shit exam and shit classmate, and shit school =__=' oh... and shit village too XD..

And why are people in Thailand so friendly...? ._.

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And I will change my hair color~!
~DARK BROWN and WHITE ~
^^

umeko_chan @ 2008-04-15T17:15:00

2008-04-15T15:35:08Z

I wanna DANCE.


   Hip hop / break dance is cool ._.

                   but my teacher is also far away...

                                        I hav to learn with youtube nd pv(s). . .
                                         ~~or maybe ask another friends...~~

yay~!

Back Again.

2008-04-14T19:56:40Z

I just finished to custpmise this shit blog again. I finally understood the way to do it ^^'.
And yet I dunno what to say anymore... Like ever. Man I'm so stupid sometimes x_x. Thoose holidays are boring. I have to stay at home to study and so on but I'm too lasy, so I just stay here and wait for the next day. Today I watched Death Note again with my mother, I really like this movie, it's one of mah fav^^!
I ll go in Paris next week end *___________________________* i m going with dah school coz we cant go during dah week, coz teh principal nd so on re just dah shit ><"
Weh r going to see Romeo & Juliette coz we study it at school ^^ ! I really look forward to go there x3~
Oh and i hav to speak in dah normal style =__=" cos it's maybeh difficult to read... I took this from a friend who write like that everytime x__x. Sorry !

oh~ and i have to prepar all the stuff for Japan x_x
hope i ll see YOU there ._.
<3.

umeko_chan @ 2007-10-31T20:04:00

2007-10-31T19:36:57Z

I'm tired of ALL people who just speak to other for their own. And many of my old friends are some... Maybe thats why I'm not with them anymore. Look at me I'm famous~! Thats the only thing they can say. Look~ I have my ticket for Gazette! I'm so happy. I don't think this is called hapiness because the most part of the people who went to Gazette were just there because it's the band of the moment. Like Dir en grey 2 years before. Who will be the next one? An cafe? Dio? Who know...
And some true fans werent able to go. Maybe because they can't just ask their parent "Mum, can you give me the money to see them? Because you know, it's fashion~!"
Thoose person are just shit. Maybe they'll see one day, when they ll be alone.
Maybe you have a good face; but are you more than someone who look just normal? NO.
And you're even worse. You love yourself and pretend to love other... I just can't imagine WHY. Maybe I'm one of thoose stupid people who dont understand this stupid famous circle. I'm not VIP, I'm not a perfection doll, I dont use my money for something I dont like. And I'm not sad because of it.

I just want to leave this place with thoose masked people. I just wanna go somewhere where people just come and take you in their arms ; people who take you as you are, even if you are different, even if you dont speak their language... People who take you in their arms when you're crying, even if they dont know you.
German people are so. French people are just shit. Most of them. I don't want to live this again. I'm tired of earing people crying because they didn't get their new haircolor, their new shoes... They just cry for everything.
Love and Hate lost their meanings~
Why shall we love something or someone that everybody hate? And... I love everything which other people love without asking me if I really love it~ ...
Thats a shame.
The better exemple is Gazette. Yeah~ They're the band of the year so everyone will love them even if they hated them one year before. Every one will go to their concert even if they don't know their music and their name. And if they see Uruha with balck hair they will say its Aoi. And Reita without his noseband is Ruki...Yeah~
And... Thanks to their make up artist... Because they were ugly when they did all themselve.
But...WHAT ABOUT THEIR MUSIC??!
Yeah, ok, Uruhas legs, Kai's smile... I forgot... It's the most important... And when you ask someone if he/she like their music... "Yes of course! Everybody love so I love too!" or " Their music? I dunno... But I loooooove their face hiiiiii" ...
Anyway...
I just wanted to write this.

Back home~

2007-08-22T15:30:28Z

I'm sad.
Don't ask me why I write this... Maybe because I need too...
Anyway.
MYV was just great ~ ! Even if I didnt see all the people I wanted to meet, his live was just too good ^^! One of the best concert I ever see ~ !!
I ll maybe make a report or something for Koko x3, but not today because I have to study japanese soon x3.
And Dir en grey's concert was sooo goood ! I really liked their prestance and Kyo's solo was just wonderfull !
I was so surprise to hear GDS and Obscure~ *_*
Two lives that I'll keep in my memorie for sure <3.

I just came back from my holiday in Germany. It was cool, even if the two day which I stayed in Berlin were a lillte too short. And I wasnt lucky xD! But doesnt matter x3.
I'm sorry for just writing nonsence >_>"... But I need it x3.

I miss you all my friends from germany .____________.
I wish I could come back ._.

~[...]~

2007-07-26T16:41:43Z

As ever.
Problems again...
Man, I dunno when I 'll exactly arrive in Bonn. Saturday for sure, but, will I stay sunday too ? And go to Myv ? And then will I find a way to come back with this stupid trains stuff ? >_>
Or will I stay only the saturday night there and go back early on sonday? ...
And...Will I see all people I wanted to meet? ...
*really really sad now*
I dont know what to do ;_____;
I'm stupid. What else?
...

umeko_chan @ 2007-07-21T21:55:00

2007-07-21T20:12:53Z

Just six days to wait. Just six and then I'll see you all my friends~ !!! <3 I'm really happy to come ! Even if I'll maybe not see myv xDD! God I'm such a baka >_> *will hear the concert from outside*

I have just one big problem now. Who will I cosplay... Ruki ? Aoi ? Uruha ?
And will I have some time left to finish thoose cosplay ? I'll not come "normal", thats sure. My Rei will kill me if I come without a cosplay ^^' *hide in a corner*.

Fuuu~ And you Juria have to cosplay Hitsugi ne~ ?! ^^ I dont want to be the only one who will look strange in the train x3.

I luv you kuroi_sora, Juria, Shin-sin, Ryo !!!!! <3<3<3 I'm looking forward to see you !!! <3.

PINK PANT...YEAH~! xDDD !! *shame*

umeko_chan @ 2007-02-08T20:10:00

2007-02-08T19:16:42Z

Here are the romaji and kanji for Chizuru ^^ *saw that many people requested them*

chizuru
anata no tegami ni wa yomenai ji dake
atte sono kuchi kara kikasete hoshii

narenai shiro ha nigate toiki sae hibiku
sora no iro sae shiretara sukuwareru no ni
umaku dekinu kokyuu mo itsuka wasuretai
sou negaeru tsuyosa mo hikarabisou de

[utsu fuse no asu] utaeba toge wo tsutau suimin
karada ni karamaserareta Restraint
Even the mind seems to sleep
ho ni fureru netsu wa totemo natsukashiku yasashii
mourou no hazama de mita kage danshoku no yume

anata ni utsuru watashi no me ga
anata wo miushinau hi ga kite mo
kono me ni yakitsuite kurete iru
komorebi no hibi to anata ha
tsurete ikanaide

nijimu shiro ga yureru
kotoba mo wasuresou
namida wa nagarete doko e iku no
watashi no namae wo yonde
kudakeru kurai daite
kono ijou ushinau no ha kowai

anata wa doko de watashi no koto utatteiru no
mimi wo sumashite mo hibiku no wa fuanteina kodou
ho ni nokotteta hazu no netsu ga omoidasenai
mourou no hazama de mita no wa kanshoko no genjitsu

senba no totemo chiisana
anata no negai ni yorisotte
egao mo kaesezu ni tada
toiki ni kazoete ita kioku no saigo ni...
anata no koe ga kikoete
subete wo nakushita asa
[hitotsu ni narenu futari]

千鶴
あなたの手紙には読めない字だけ
会ってその口から聞かせて欲しい

慣れない白は苦手　吐息さえ響く
空の色さえ知れたら救われるのに
上手く出来ぬ呼吸もいつか忘れたい
そう願える強さも干涸びそうで

「うつ伏せの明日」歌えば　棘を伝う睡眠
身体に絡ませられたRestraint
Even the mind seems to sleep
頬に触れた熱はとても懐かしく優しい
朦朧の狭間で見た影　暖色の夢

あなたに映る私の目が
あなたを見失う日が来ても
この目に焼き付いてくれている
木洩れ陽の日々とあなたは
連れて行かないで

滲む白が揺れる
言葉も忘れそう
涙は流れて何処へ行くの
私の名前を呼んで
砕けるくらい抱いて
これ以上失うのは怖い

あなたは何処で私の事歌っているの
耳をすましても響くのは不安定な鼓動
頬に残ってたはずの熱が思い出せない
朦朧の狭間で見たのは　寒色の現実

千羽のとても小さな
あなたの願いに寄り添って
笑顔も返せずにただ
吐息を数えていた記憶の最期に…
あなたの声が聞こえて
全てを無くした朝
「一つになれぬ二人」

Disorder

2007-01-07T21:01:09Z

Yeah... The end of holiday is here >_>
Don't want to go back to school again...
*miss you Maren T_T* *cries*

I have a little request ^^'
Does someone have a pix where we can see the Gazette logo from disorder? I mean the one which is on the clothes and on the cover cd ^^' It's for one of my cosplay ...
Thank you =^_^= !!!!

Friends only

2006-11-02T18:35:42Z

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